What's New...

Nothing. There's nothing fucking new. Everyday is the same fucking bullshit over and over again. I can never understand why. I try to be optimistic and look forward to each new day as they say time heals all wounds. Fuck that. Each day when I try, you just dont seem to do the same and i'm left alone again. When can you ever start respecting the fact that we are ONE? When will you start opening your eyes? WHEN?! FUCK!

we hardly kiss anymore. we dont even hold hands nowadays. nothing seems like before. i live life in pretence making it seem like everything is all good. Well, it's not. I just want to wake up from this bad dream. I am desperate to wake up! So help me God.

The Worst Life Ever

Everything in me died since he came into the picture. Misery is what I felt for weeks but yet no one was truly able to understand the pain and hurt I carried inside. Even until now, things seem to have gotten better but it isn't really the same anymore. Suspicion, insecurity and devastation has been rocking my mind. It has been messed with like never before and it would probably take a very long time to recover from this mental warfare. I hide behind a smile almost everyday as I am afraid to show my true feelings for fear that it might spark an issue. Yet you are so insensitive towards how I feel and never really bothered about my concerns. How do I free myself and make things like they were before? Someone please tell me.

The dark clouds began to form as I slowly withdraw into the darkness.
As the rain falls, I am reminded of the hurt and pain that was caused.
The lightning strikes hard and trees and branches are shaken violently.
Alas! The branches are unable to bear the strike and drop to the ground, and there, my heart lies, shattered.